I have been officially released from the fertility clinic's care and placed in the capable hands of my ob gyn. I am happy about this because I am very comfortable with my ob gyn. He delivered all three of my own girls. He is very stress free.
My first appointment with him is next Friday, and I have no idea what we will be doing at that appointment. I do know that the intended parents will try to come out for the first doctor visit. It will be nice for them to get to see the offices and meet the doctor. I truly hope that Dr. Altman will be delivering the babies. Since they are twins, I may not go full term and we might have no say in who does the delivery.
It is odd though to not have any appointments going on this week. I have gotten used to my blood being evaluated and getting ultrasounds and just knowing what's going on. I just hope both embryos are growing. I am about 7-8 weeks pregnant, so they should be about as big a raspberries now, according to one site. I am feeling slightly better this week. I am definitely tired, but I can eat now which is nice. The secret is fruit. Not too sweet fruit, but citrus type, tart fruit. If I eat some fruit, I can get other stuff down too.
I usually watch an episode of House after I get in bed to help me wind down. After that I might put on a second, shorter episode of something and I fall asleep by the time it's over. Last night I put on House and was out before the end. I slept very well for about 6.5 hours. I wish I had more time to sleep, but of course I had to get up and go to work.
Oh yeah! That is my good news that I can now share. It is bittersweet because I do enjoy my day job, particularly the people I work with. I definitely prefer teaching though. More than that, I prefer having time to spend with my kids. There were many signs pushing me in the direction of quitting my day job and sticking with part time teaching and being an at home mother.
First, My go-to baby sitter had a medical scare and had to have a pacemaker put in. She is fine now, but I can't stick her with my kids five days a week.
Second, My other babysitter has to resign at the end of the month because her husband got a job in Columbus.
So I would have to put all three of my girls in childcare for the summer which would use pretty much all of my income. I considered just dealing with it and spending a few tight months that way, but then I realized that I would be working 40+ hours per week to pay someone else to spend time with my girls. I want to spend time with my girls. I talked to my two older girls about the possibility of staying home with them. I warned them that this would mean cutting down on lessons and extra things. They didn't even hesitate before saying they'd give things up so I could be home with them.
That made my decision for me. I will still be teaching. I'll actually be trying to pick up a few more teaching hours next fall when they go back to school. The beauty of teaching is that we'll all have the same holidays and snow days together, so there will be no mommy guilt when I have to miss work or pawn them off on the nearest family member.
I am lucky that my husband is supportive of this goal. I know he's just hoping for a cleaner house, but I'll take what I can get. (Yes, I will be focusing on keeping the house nicer. It is very hard to keep up with when we both work two jobs and have three kids dropping things everywhere.)
Right now, though, I just can't wait until I can take an afternoon nap so I can actually get through a day feeling human.