A lot has happened since I last wrote. Most of the happenings have been of the "hurry up and wait " variety. I am mostly okay with that for a couple of reasons.First, well.. I didn't really relish the idea of being super pregnant during the hottest months of summer. Second, I admittedly know almost nothing about the whole process, but I felt the nurses started me again way too early. I don't feel like giving gory details, but after my first failed transfer they were prepping me for a second within two months. I hadn't had time to regulate or get normal.
I was only mildly surprised when my uterine lining was not able to get thick enough for transfer. I went back once a week for three weeks in the hopes of success as well as upping my estrogen intake by quite a bit. After the third check, the clinic decided to start me over with ten days of provera, and a nice long appointment with Aunt Flo.
After that, my next checkup showed that I had super high estrogen levels. I guess this can hinder the ability for a transfer to work and can lead to birth defects. I was, once more, told to wait another week before moving forward.
My last appointment was last Thursday, and my levels checked out good, so I am back on track for a mid-April transfer. My lining is now at 6.6 (the goal being 7-8.) I can't help but feel like things are more 'right' this time. I think it will work. I hope.
The most frustrating thing about this journey is that the doctor I have seen 3 to 4 times a month since last November A. doesn't ever remember me, and B. can't tell me anything because he is my monitoring doctor. My actual doctor is in PA and has only seen me once. That was at the first failed transfer. I feel like the doc that sees me should have some insight as to how to make this thing work. I also feel like it is a disservice to the intended parents who are paying for all of these appointments that all their fertility clinic gets out of it is a picture of my uterus and some numbers saying my hormones are on level. I don't really know how it works out. I suppose it must since they have a decent rate of success. I am just trying not to stress about it and be as healthy as I can.
Wish me luck.