Most everyone knows by now that the first transfer was not successful. My first instinct was to feel absolutely awful for this. I was meant to give my IPs hope, not make them hear a negative again. I am not a very religious person, but I do believe in a higher power of some sort. Call it God, Goddess, or whatever kind of being works best for you. The universe has a plan. The path I have traveled has been for a reason. I began filling out the paperwork over two years ago for a reason. I waited two years after the application to email the agency again for a reason. Tina matched me with these IPs for a reason. I refuse to believe that this reason was to just be another disappointment for them.
I know that my next transfer will have the same exact percentage for possibility of success. It is a small percentage, really... less than 40%. That is a chance my IPs were willing to take, and it is odds I am willing to bet on. There is a reason for everything.
Now we are preparing for round two of IVF. I start my birth control pills again tomorrow, and await further instructions. It does look like we'll have another visit to PA in February for another IVF attempt. I have faith that this one will be successful. Good vibes are always appreciated.